According to Merriam-Webster, the definition of regret is to feel sad or sorry about something that you did or did not do. In high school, I quit the violin. This blog series is about my journey to resume playing. To read the entire series, please visit www.melaniebates.net/blog.
On June 25-27, 2021, I attended Levine Music's Adult String Retreat. The Retreat included technical skill work, musical topic sessions, music theory basics, and a jam session reading. I felt a bit apprehensive about participating as this was the first time I have played with others since returning to the violin in September 2020 after a 15+ year hiatus.
During the Retreat, we had the opportunity to compose our own piece. This was the first time I had ever written music. I named my piece "Butterflies." I chose this title because a butterfly represents nervousness i.e., "butterflies in your stomach," but more importantly growth and development i.e., metamorphosis. The next day, I performed my piece in front of everyone while the Retreat Director played a piano accompaniment. To my surprise, I was not as nervous as I thought I would be. The sense of pride and accomplishment overpowered any apprehension. I am truly grateful for the experience and look forward to the next phase of my journey.
Melanie Elizabeth Bates is an attorney and consultant based in Washington, D.C. The views expressed here are her own.